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Monday, July 30, 2012

Bloody Mary's Count as a Salad and Other Silly Things I Tell Myself





Hello!  And welcome to the  Bloody Mary's Count as a Salad, and Other Silly Things I Tell Myself link-up, hosted by me, and A Boy, a Girl, and the Marine Corps.

Each week, the Link Up will open up on Monday and close on Wednesday.  The general guidelines are, use the picture above in your post.  Submit your link on either this blog, A Boy, A Girl, and The Marine Corps!  Share some silly things you tell yourself.  And be sure to grab the code to include the linky tool on your blog, this allows your readers to link up via you, but still be part of the whole Shebang!  :)



I had my whole post pre-written, and ready to post for this morning, it was fun and lighthearted and silly, and then, I went to Chicago for my Mission Continues Orientation.  I came back a little smarter, motivated, and humbled which lead me to re-do my entire post. Over the weekend I met with over 100 other Veterans, just like me who were looking for the same purpose they had while in the military, we were all looking for a mission, something we could engage in, another reason to want to wake up every day. Most of the people I was with had various injuries, illnesses and wounds, they had deployed multiple times, they know pain, and loss, hurt, you could say that MOST of the people in that room could have had a very solid "Excuse," for not being there, and not stepping up to the challenge we all committed to this weekend. I had the honor of hearing and speaking to an amazing man this weekend,  LT Col Mark Weber, and he taught me a little something about excuses, they don't exist in his world. Lt Col Weber was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer in which he named Beufort. The chemo has stopped working, and  LT Col Mark Weber is DYING, he is in pain EVERY day of his life, and yet, Saturday along side the 100 of us he, his wife and 3 boys gave up their weekend to help us with our service project in Chicago.It was hard, it was hot, it was not what many would call fun, there were times a lot of us wanted to give up, but seeing him push on kept us going. Lt. COL Weber gave up his time, time that he will NEVER get back. They could have been his last days, his last hours, and he CHOSE to spend them with us, he chose to show us that we are in control of our own lives, that no one is responsible for us. At the end of the day, an anonymous donor stepped up with 100, 000 dollars for The Mission Continues, in HIS honor. There are no adequate words to describe how I felt at that moment, I was proud, and ashamed at the same time, I knew in that moment it was time for major changes, time to step outside my comfort zone, to really and truly live in a way that will inspire others to do the same. Lt Col Mark Weber is my hero.


What I tell myself:
I worked really hard yesterday, so I don't have to work as hard today. 
I ate healthy all week, it's the weekend I can eat what I want. 
No one else is doing it, so why should I?
Eh, no one will know if I do this half-assed.
I don't have to be all for something to be involved in it.


What I should be telling myself:
Work hard everyday!
The better I take care of myself, the better my life will be.
Be the example, even when it sucks worse than anything you have ever experienced in your life.
Do everything you do with passion, whole heartedly, and never leave anything undone. 
Why waste your time doing something you do not whole heartedly believe in? 


Really, there is a lot of SHIT in my life,a lot of things I use to justify actions that I would not always be proud of, its time to clean it up. 




What things silly, or otherwise do you tell yourself to make yourself feel better? Link Up!




















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