Monday, September 28, 2009
Last week was a really hard week for me, for us. Im at my wits end with all this TBI stuff, and I really feel like I have no where to turn....If I try to talk to Nate he thinks im cutting him down, I cant talk to people who dont know about TBI, cause they just have no clue, and it seems as though everytime I try to talk to someone who has it or whose husband has it, its always a competition of whose worse! All this is consuming our life, and I dont like it, so ive taken it upon myself to get educated! I bought a bunch of books, and I plan to spend ALL, okay maybe not ALL, but alot of my free time reading. I just want to know what goes on in that head of his, and maybe in turn that will help me figure out whats going on in mine? Im angry at him for getting hurt I think, because I have to compensate for all of his shortcomings, of course im not sure ill ever admit that to him, perhaps I need to. Its just so unfair that a 28 year old man, who was once healthy has to go through everything that he is. Its really sad. I want so bad to turn back time and keep him from that deployment, but we all know that cant happen. I know many of you are wondering why I didnt just keep going with my old blog? Its because its time for a change, time for me, and him, and "us" to accept and love this new person he has become, and make the best of what we have, instead of dwelling in what was! Wish us Luck!
Posted by Kristle Helmuth at 4:48 PM